241031 Green-Eyed Monster

 Green-Eyed Monster

My eyes are green; know what that means

The green-eyed monster I have been

I know it's sin I've entered in

But I can't stop once I begin

Want what she's got that I have not

It seems I covet quite a lot

Can't let it be and just be me

Instead, I'm filled with jealousy

Seems every day, just like buffet

I pick and choose from an array

Of ways that I wish I could be 

Or traits that in another see

I wish I had her hair, her clothes 

Give anything for button nose

His wit, her brains, that fit body

List goes on to infinity

May even covet piously

With other's spiritual gifts I see

I wish I prayed the way I've heard

Gosh, he knows scripture word for word

Why can't I have big faith like him

Or cup of blessings to the brim

To sing hymns like the angels sing 

Or gifts like hers to Savior bring

When envious, there's no debate 

Another's joy, can't celebrate 

Instead, I sit with jealous pout

Might even hope they do without 

If I can't have it, why should they

They don't deserve it anyway

Perhaps God loves them more than me

Since they seem blessed abundantly

Envy's in devil's arsenal 

To make my heart be jealous full

Convince me that God's holding back

If God's so good, why do I lack

Hold on there, Satan, now I see

What you're trying to do to me

I finally see it as your ploy

To steal my happiness and joy

God cleanse my heart that I might see

All of your children differently

Not just as ones with whom compete

But placed to make my life complete

For different gifts we've each been given

Unique to us and straight from heaven

Hers are for her and his for him

And no one's given all of them

Teach me to live with a pure heart

Let jealousy then play no part

Instead, rejoice when others are blessed

And put green-eyed monster to rest