250521 Forgiven

 Forgiven

Thought I forgave them; know I tried
But that old wound's been opened wide
Something has triggered my past pain
So now I'm hurting once again

" I do forgive," is what I said
Yet, old offense still fills my head
Dark thoughts that I claimed I put down
Today, I find still lingering 'round

"Despair," I said, "I'm through with you."
Yet, you returned out of the blue
And all the hurt I thought I'd beat
Is back again, pooled 'round my feet

Tripping me up, making me fall
It seems I've hit the same brick wall
Must I break through it once again 
Dear Lord, will this fight ever end?

Forgiveness battle, thought I'd won
And bitterness, believed was done
But devil knows where to attack
Thus, hurt and anger have come back

I know the devil plays a part 
In rewounding my broken heart
For, if it's in dark thoughts I dwell
He's trapped me in a kind of hell

So, tell me, God, when will this end
No longer past hurts reoffend
When will I find true peace and rest
And thus achieve real forgiveness 

Suppose the place to go is this
Remind that I, too, need forgiveness 
The kind that's truly heaven sent
The kind received when I repent

And so, perhaps this side of heaven
I must forgive seventy times seven
Is that the way my heart is free?
For that's how much God forgives me

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