240111 Hard Days

Hard Days

God, my faith journey has stalled out
Still do your will, but with a pout
Once I obeyed most joyously
But oft times now done grudgingly

I know if work as for the Lord
Can turn my labor to reward
But my labor feels just like that -
Laborious or like combat

I'm fighting being in a funk
Can't count how much coffee I've drunk
Still drag around,  low energy 
Lord, what is going on with me?

Some days, I find it hard to smile
Seems this has gone on for a while 
Can't focus on the task at hand
Things once exciting now feel bland

Outside my window's cold and gray
Inside, I'm feeling the same way 
I find each day I'm getting through 
But I'm uncertain how I do

I'd rather not get out of bed
Can't look with joy at what's ahead 
Seems now I cry too easily
I'm wallowing in self-pity

Yes, my faith journey has stalled out
My vision's cloudy, without doubt
Of course, my countenance is blue
I'm looking down, not up at you

Forgotten how you faithfully 
Keep every promise made to me
Your love and mercy deserve praise
Even when going through hard days

So, every day while this fog lifts
May I see each one as a gift 
And even when I'm feeling weepy
May I feel how you love me deeply

I pray you'll help my trust to grow
Especially when I feel low 
To trust that you've good plans for me
For you see what I cannot see

To know despair will reach an end
And I will smile and laugh again
Rejoicing that you've walked with me
Holding my hand through life's journey 

Psalm 34:18
The LORD is near to the broken-hearted and saves the crushed in spirit 

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope 

Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand 

1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your anxieties on Him because he cares for you 

Psalm 143:7-8
Proverbs 3:5-6
Philippians 4:6-7

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